A Certain Thought
Vivienne Glance
He published at fifty, decades and oceans after that youthful scramble over rocks, with his careful store of cold feathered bodies in annotated boxes, pressed petals and seed pods stacked between leaves. After swaying nights in that ship’s cabin tossed by torrential thoughts, his scratching pen shaped on the page that first thought. Firmly back on land, mild Kent evenings of yellow light and family times, did not stop his mind swaying like his sea legs. He ambled along metaphysical paths laid down highways of concrete thought reasoned their cause changed forever our answer. Before the hand of God was swept away no one questioned His plan but embraced the serenity of certainty; now contained in reason’s coils the small part he grasped the sample he chose from the vastness of everything cannot be freed again. He conjured a theory that still cracks tarmac as sure as summer heat, and, buried like an IED in a curve of the road, puts speeding fundamental wheels into a spin, draws into the open the ringing notes of AK47 repetition, cuts down the ranks of ‘Think as I think or else...’ Still, his thought is with us: our solace. We believe with the same fundamental fervour of those he defeated, in the survival of the fittest thought. But this solid reason of flesh and bones (after all, genetics is assured) is sea mist cut by The Beagle’s bow feathers swept up to invisibility on a thermal dusty imprints of ancient leaves, it shimmers when I ask why I love sunlight on a speck, floating in this room, crave grass-shadows in a Spring breeze, seek certainty in chaotic words?